Chateaux Bruniquel - France
I am constantly getting great ideas of things I want to write about and am always reading interesting articles online that I want to comment on too, but for some reason, writing prolifically just isn't happening right now...it seems all I can do is hold my breath until summer vacation. Someday in the future I hope to be able to write more coherently about my experiences here, or maybe I never will, I don't know. I feel disappointed in myself but at the same time, I have to accept where I'm at.
Living in the present is a challenge because not knowing where I'm going next is driving me absolutely nuts. It also seems like I'm accomplishing next to nothing, but I am showing up for the classes I teach and doing my best to help my students.
Last summer I was lucky enough to visit Chateaux Bruniquel in the southwest of France, a magical place straight out of Medieval times! Then at Christmas, I was able to visit Budapest and stayed near Buda Castle there, another incredibly beautiful place. I've been dreaming of these castles in the sky a lot lately...
Last Summer
But when I am honest with myself, as much as I love these places, it seems like this year all I am craving is roots. Making decisions by myself seems to be wearing me down a bit. Perhaps it is almost time to come home, but not exactly sure where that is anymore!Nelly Furtado's I'm Like a Bird
It can be easy to lose the plot over here at times, so a person has to find ways to stay grounded.
(Either that or get on a boat with good friends!)
Off the coast of Oman
I must admit I really didn't have a care in the world last weekend floating around the Musandam Peninsula off the coast of Oman (and we saw dolphins!)
Yeah!
Musandam Peninsula
It's this idea of being alone that is so oppressive. I feel like I should know better and that it is an illusion, yet I still feel it sometimes. I am told it is a huge problem for people here and so it is not unique to me. When I'm in my apartment I can get a bit agoraphobic and don't want to go out... that's when it really creeps in.
So getting out of here for awhile (July 18 - August 23) will do me a world of good but I will have to leave Trixie! That's another emotional hurdle I need to get over. We've done it two summers now and she has been fine both times, but it's still so hard to leave her.
"Where ya going?"
A thought comes to mind: Paris would probably cheer me up! I've been able to go two summers in a row now, so maybe I could go for a few days on my way to or fro.
Yes, this life I am living is beyond my wildest dreams and yes, I know I have Gucci problems today, and yes, I am grateful for them.
Solo in Paris
Summer 2012 - Eiffel Tower
Love and light to all until the next time!
Chris
